As the year 2015 comes to an end, we all tend to look back and try to reflect on where we have been and where we are heading. Many of us tend to spend time with family we may not have seen or spent time with all year. We tend to surround ourselves with people we call familial because of blood but not necessarily those that have become familial because of love. It forces us to see what choices we have made in our lives and to face our hopes for our tomorrow.
This reflection time sends melancholy waves through my spirit. The road I have been on and the turns I have chosen; have I chosen well? Will I continue to travel the course? Do I drive too hard to steer this course? Am I alone in the desire to reach a destination for my family, and my loved ones-those family that are not blood but who I surround myself with by choice?
All this uncertainty reminds me of a book, made movie, but a quote from that book that I keep on a scrap of paper in journal of collected quotes:
“I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.” –Frank Herbert, Dune.
The litany against fear- it is rather well known. The first time I heard this I was but a girl. Even then it resonated with my soul and has for years like a voice on the wind steadied by resolve. We all have an inner voice that speaks volumes to us and leads us to make our life choices. As I contemplate and set goals for 2016, I will hear that voice telling me to make good choices, to live a good life, to surround myself with those I care about and to be who I can be proud of, who my children can be proud of. And to make choices that may not be comfortable but to expand my experiences to live a rewarding life.